10. Entry

[madame_harker]

Private
I've been haunted by my memories since I arrived here to find my husband's counterpart. After everything we had been through I only wanted to protect him. I had so hoped that Quincey would be our chance for happiness but I ended up losing them both. All because of the secrets I chose to keep...I'm damned and I know it. It is like this place is dangling Jonathan in front of me, showing me what I can never have again.

[/private]


All the talk of memories yesterday seems to have had a purpose. All my memories have some type of value but I find that I would rather not share most of them. A lady should be afforded some privacy after all. Not that this place respects privacy.





[ooc; The day she gave birth to Quincey.
The day her Jonathan died in her arms.
The day she was approached by Sanderson Reed to become a part of the League.]

Comments

[tinyvampiregod.livejournal.com]

Mina...

[madame_harker]

Yes, Vlad?

[tinyvampiregod.livejournal.com]

[clings to her waist]

1/2

[madame_harker]

2/2

[madame_harker]

[tolerates the clinging. Expression softens]

What's wrong?

[tinyvampiregod.livejournal.com]

[face smushed against her stomach]

ImsorryIwouldtakeitbackifIcould

[madame_harker]

[sad expression, places a comforting hand on his head]

What is done is done...thank you for the apology though...I shall never hear one from your counterpart who did this to me.

[tinyvampiregod.livejournal.com]

[presses cheek to her stomach and nuzzles]

If there is ever anything you want or need of me...

[madame_harker]

[gently she pushes a strand of his hair out of his face.]

...I'll be fine. There are others who need you more than I...I heard what happened to Abraham's son...as well as your future son and Walter. I'm sorry. I never wish that on anyone.

[tinyvampiregod.livejournal.com]

[sighs contentedly and closes eyes]

Master and D will be fine. Walter. . hn.

[madame_harker]

[shakes head slightly, sighs softly]

...I see. Happiness and this place seem to be quite fleeting.

[tinyvampiregod.livejournal.com]

[nuzzles and pulls away, smiling]

That is why we must take what we can get.

[theotokos.livejournal.com]

I fully agreed with the idea of privacy.

I'll respect your wish.

[madame_harker]

Yes, well considering my written journal was used in a book and then this journal thing doesn't seem any more secure. I am rather put out that now my memories...my last safe haven is also being invaded as well.

Thank you, I shall do the same for you.

[theotokos.livejournal.com]

...Yes, that is something that should be untouched, some painful memories shouldn't be shared with others. This is...completely cruel.

[madame_harker]

I suppose we shouldn't expect much from the Deities of this place. They have shown time and time again that nothing is sacred or private in this place. They probably find this all very amusing.

[sinfulpride.livejournal.com]

My poor, dear Mrs. Harker.

[madame_harker]

Please do me the favor of not patronizing me.

[sinfulpride.livejournal.com]

Ah, but I sympathize with you ... unable to achieve your full potential because of the losses that haunt your footsteps ...

[madame_harker]

And what precisely do you mean by full potential?

[sinfulpride.livejournal.com]

You have his blood in your veins.

1/2

[madame_harker]

[madame_harker]

Perhaps I do not wish to reach my full potential. Why would I want to be like him?

[sinfulpride.livejournal.com]

Do you not long for the strength?

[madame_harker]

No, not the kind of strength you speak of...I never wanted to become a monster.

[wolfsmercy.livejournal.com]

...

I remember him too.

[madame_harker]

I still miss him very much.

[wolfsmercy.livejournal.com]

How long has he been gone?

[madame_harker]

From my correct period of time only a few years.

[wolfsmercy.livejournal.com]

Over a hundred. The first fifty were the worst.

[madame_harker]

...All I wanted was for us to finally have some normalcy in our lives...and things turned out worse...