2. Entry

[madame_harker]

Things have certainly grown more complicated in the last twenty-four hours since my arrival here.

I had thought I had found a way to cope with what my life had become and then I end up here and I now I find that I must re-evalute my decisions. I had gathered enough information to know this world was paradoxical but the paradoxes I am currently facing are quite cruel.


Private//Hackable
I do realize that my Jonathan is indeed dead and the Jonathan that is in this world is from an entirely different reality. My mind knows this...but my heart is another story. It doesn't feel the distinction and that is a problem. I have all ready had to deal with losing my husband once...I really do not think I can handle losing him a second time.

This obsession he has with destroying Vlad is exactly why I never told my Jonathan the full truth about about my tainted blood. He died never knowing the whole truth. I never did tell him how it was that I survived a child birthing that should have taken my life...that in fact did claim my life.

It seems I am caught between a rock and a hard place. Those people that Jonathan has taken up with are a group of psychotic warmongers. No good could ever come from association with people like them but I do not know how to break their hold over him. That Major person seems to have his claws dug in and there is no setting Jonathan free. No matter how much Vlad and his counterpart push at me to try to reconcile with Jonathan, it is not that simple. I will not join the warmongers and I feel he can not leave them...to make matters worse I can not bring myself to even consider fighting against him. Counterpart or not he is still my husband.

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[ooc; Though she is a fast learner for trying to code her entry, she fails at encrypting her entries. ^^; She is Victorian era after all. She'll eventually get the hang of it.]

Comments

[dark-butler.livejournal.com]

You are in a difficult position here, I understand. Likely better than you will be able to understand for some time.

[ooc: Oh yes, he hacked alright, but he won't be loudly advertising the fact.]

[madame_harker]

You were the first to tell me that my being here may cause problems. So I gather you are close to Vlad and Abraham's heirs. I've only been here a day and the word "problems" rather seems like an understatement now.

[dark-butler.livejournal.com]

I served van Helsing's heirs for most of my life.

You have come into a very complicated situation and I feel certain that many factions will be trying to use you in upcoming days.

[madame_harker]

Sorry to pry but what changed that you stopped serving them?

It wouldn't be the first time that I have been used as bait.

[dark-butler.livejournal.com]

Your...

The Captain.

The group he serves did things that altered my loyalties and resulted in my betraying a lifetime's service.

Hacked!

[hercount.livejournal.com]

Then do nothing. But do not interfere. I will not allow Sir Hellsing to come to harm. Not even for you.

Re: Hacked!

[madame_harker]

Obviously I need to learn better coding on this thing. It is rude to intrude on other's private thoughts you realize. I would switch back to paper and pen but that had its setbacks as well.

Hacked!

[hercount.livejournal.com]

Is it? But you know me, so well mannered, Madame Mina.

You did not reply to what I said.

Re: Hacked!

[madame_harker]

No I did not reply and with good reason. What I do or do not do is for me to know. I guess I shall have to keep my thoughts to myself.

[hercount.livejournal.com]

Mina. You need not. I am only concerned.

[favored-son.livejournal.com]

Aw, cheer up. At least you have pseudo-family here. You sort of know them, but you don't have to claim them as relatives.

[madame_harker]

I hardly find that comforting.

[favored-son.livejournal.com]

Yeah, well ... that figures. They're all pretty screwed up.

[hercount.livejournal.com]

Mister Jiggles! You shouldn't speak that way of your Host and his family.

[dark-butler.livejournal.com]

It's not as though he lies.

[favored-son.livejournal.com]

Hah! See? Even the butler agrees with me.

[madame_harker]

I figured as much.

[hercount.livejournal.com]

I think we are very functional.

[dark-butler.livejournal.com]

You are the poorest of judges.

[hercount.livejournal.com]

At least I did not betray.

[dark-butler.livejournal.com]

Which leaves you shriven of all other sin, of course.

[hercount.livejournal.com]

I liked you better when you stayed away from me in this place.

[favored-son.livejournal.com]

Father, is this really the place for such talk? Mrs. Harker has enough to sort through, don't you agree?

[hercount.livejournal.com]

Yes, yes. Come D, let us find Integral.

[dark-butler.livejournal.com]

Let her see all the truths about those who would use her.

And I liked your father far better when he was in pieces in front of me.

[favored-son.livejournal.com]

He has that effect on people.

[dark-butler.livejournal.com]

At least none of us wonder why.

[madame_harker]

Father? You're Vlad's son?

[favored-son.livejournal.com]

I am.

[steeldame.livejournal.com]

I wouldn't be the woman I am today if Hellsing was ever functional.

[dark-butler.livejournal.com]

You will have no argument from me on that.

[steeldame.livejournal.com]

I wish to apologise on the behalf of my organisation about the trouble my servant (past or present) might be causing.

[madame_harker]

You do not need to apologise to me. They have only talked to me and have maintained their distance. The distance is much appreciated at this time.

[steeldame.livejournal.com]

That is what I expect Alucard to respect.